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Published March 27, 2009 Uncategorized Leave a Commentsilliness at it’s best. yesterday was a day set aside for losing your mind in a sunbeam moment. we started out heading out looking to put together mary’s toga’s costume for her party and ended up roaming queen street and playing dress up and going to frans at 2 am playing cards.
i’ve been very unfaithful to my blog…
things are not looking up. sometimes i wonder what’s wrong with me. why can’t i pull this all together. why can’t i pull myself together. & it always leads to the fact that i’m just pathetic and a disappointment to everything and everyone around me.
on another note, as nina headed to waterloo and others head off to niagara, it just confirms that fact that i can’t stand staying in one place too long. i get bored i guess. or maybe it’s the fact that i need new inspiration to get myself going every two seconds… i finally talked to my sister after a long waited trial&error for each of us to be available to talk to each other. it was good. i miss her. i hope i get to go on exchange in third year. that’s all i am working towards at the moment for school. then maybe i can find something that can anchor me down. i am trying here. i really am.
(!) omg i missed chad vangaalen. that totally ruined my day. that week was so busy that i didn’t even bother to remember it. i don’t like myself right now 
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i gotta keep my head up…
today was so many mixed emotions. of disappointment to laughter. woke up for class at 8, ended early, took a shower, went back to mississauga, ate lunch at cafe hollywood, went to appointment, came back to toronto, dinner with warren, nisha, mary for brown food, little adventure afterwards, and now, procrastinating. it’s like at times, i’m totally in different to everything and disappointment with myself then at other times, it’s like i don’t give a damn and just enjoy what i have and where i am. but it doesn’t seem like i can just keep on being positive. i need to keep my head up. but at least things are looking up in other aspects of my life.
dinner was fun. it was like another one of our dinners where all it consists of was good fun and laughter. as mehdi would say, ” good times, good times” i am hoping that i will still have these next year when i am commuting. like our old spaghetti factory and red lobster events.
haha
“can i use your glue please?”
these headaches of mine are becoming such a custom to me that i don’t even bother to take any kind of depressant to ease the pain. it’s like i am calm and placid but i am frantic and anxious all the time. i feel so very indifferent with life…
i am so disappointed this year with BIAF. they didn’t have one this year. i am always looking forward to volunteer and go to it every year. it’s like the epitome of all the events put together. you get your concerts and your art exhibits all in one opening. plus, discovery of new bands and artists gets me excited and inspired. & i need that right about now.
these days in this life feel like things are slowing falling apart. everything around me is just like a constant reminder of personal failures and they keep me in a constant state of disbelief. i feel like such a waste. it’s so degrading, i am so degrading… maybe it’s just the weather.
new found love: vince james frank aka frankmusik. things like this just reminds me of my longing and desire to just travel and explore/ discover. it romanticizes that feeling. maybe that’s just what i need right now. & a added bonus, he’s nice to look at. haha.
spring break was too short. time seems to go so fast these days. even winter holiday seemed to go by so fast. too be honest, ever since i started school, i feel like i need more time to relax when i do get the holidays. but it’s not enough time i feel. school drains me so much. & the thing is, i don’t even know if i like what i doing anymore. & my parents get the feel of it too. i doubt myself everyday… it’s a horrible feeling to have on your mind every second. (!)
the week before reading week/spring break started, i hardly slept. like literally say i had only 12 hours of sleep through the whole entire week: sunday to friday. so i was dying for a break. and it was a good break with some ups and downs. i suppose to go on a weekend road trip with warren to buffalo but last minute, my dad said no we couldn’t go. his argument was that because he saw the movie “Taken“, he got scared for us and wouldn’t let us go. i don’t blame him but now how am i going to break the new that me and jimmy are planning to go to london in august! i felt horribly bad, like extremely bad for ditching warren that weekend. then our dad treated me and nina to a musical on tuesday night. we watched The Color Purple and was it ever good. two things that will always make me smile are watching musicals (film&theater) and watching old films. i needed that show, it was a good first step to take a breather from my life. then caught up with some friends and with family as well. i felt like this whole break was a rush to meet up with everyone. i really wanted just some time to be at home and just do nothing and relax. oh! then there was friday night. friday night was katelin’s halloween birthday party and avni’s wine and cheese party. i thought it was a successful night because we found time to go to both and said our “hi” to everyone but… drama. anyways, the next day was my daytrip to london to see nina’s new place and to say goodbye to her. her place was nice but i worry about her… she’s a bigger doormat than me. & (!!!) omg, the weather was horrible. driving back to toronto was the scariest thing in my life. i didn’t dare to dose off. i saw a car flip over in front of us and another slip right into a ditch. that 3 hours was the scariest thing. i feel that i’m so paranoid of accidents now because i’ve been in a few already. what a horrible way to end my spring break. with a scare of my life. sunday wasn’t even my last day of break because i had to rush back down for a group project meeting. we spend 8 hours in the studio doing it. my life is so busy… agh(!)
here’s some old picture and some from the break:
I got to see shernett swaby from project runway canada and her new collection!
& we got free martini drinks that were way too strong.
sebastian granger and the mountains were playing at sonic boom. (!)
he wanted to look “surprised” lol
an amazing performance for wintercity fest. better than the alice and wonderland they did last year.
& he sure can rap! he went on for like 10 minutes just free-styling.
it’s my third time seeing thunderheist & it’s always a party with them.
at color purple inside the canon theatre
i am so fed up right about now. people just don’t know when to get a hint or a clue. omfg! i’m so annoyed by these people and i show it but they just don’t get it. i’m so sick and annoyed of them! i’m not the kind of person that will just go up to your face and be like, “shut up, you’re annoying.” or, “could you stop doing this or that..” i’m pretty much a doormat sometimes and all i can do it rant… .like i’m doing now. agh! where’s nina when i need to rant like hell! plus i can’t even rant on the phone at this hour because then everyone will hear!
